The rise and fall

I've hit rock bottom,again. It's been countless times since this has happened to me. Such a great big blow is dealt to me every time I fall into this godforsaken pithole. It just hurts so much to think I'm totally helpless in situations like this. Completely helpless. How many times would I need to try before we actually achieve something worthwhile? Just how many failures would I have drown into before I could finally just swim up to surface and shrug of all the sweat that I'm in? It could be said that I haven't been trying my best, doing my best. Just exactly, how would I even know if I did my best? All I can say is that I've been doing way

Here I go again.

All it takes is one glance at her smile just to make me feel that the little caterpillars inside me has become beautiful coloured butterflies that are trying to find their way outta my stomach. I guess i'm the only one that understands what this sentence mean. My motivation for the day, even though you'll never know. Edit: She will know. I gotta let her know somehow.

Fighting hard for change

If there's something I want to say, I'll say it from the deepest depths of my heart; It is almost impossible to actually make a change, but it can be done. Seriously, I'm fighting so hard with myself just to change. It's difficult, but achievable.

I'll post a picture of something here that'll probably make me change for the better.



Yes, the picture you see above is indeed THE Fiat Coupe. Actually, it is a Yellow Fiat Coupe. The first car is saw in my life that left an impact on which car I want to own, right up until now. I saw this car behind my old house, in Kota Kemuning. It was 10 years ago and I still love it. I just love how it looks and not just for its looks alone, it's performance..and yeah..its looks. Some friends say that it's ugly, weird and some stuff which I fail to comprehend, but I certainly find it absolutely stunningly beautiful. (Call me a crazy guy who has weird taste for cars but who cares, just look at her!) A dream car I'd say. I want to work harder and smarter for this stunning beauty above, and also for other stuff.

I'm gonna own it one day. Soon, hopefully. Trust me. :)

PS: I just hope I can really trust me.

that little guy

There is always a little faith and hope, somewhere around you. You just gotta think back hard and try to remember whT you're really after. When something during that situation doesn't seem right at all, or if it isn't your way at , just take a deep breathe and think about what matters. You'll start to think and remember the things that could be of matter to you. What im saying is, live by the words of wisdom that you've told yourself before, and don't ever forget it. Just remember it. Even in our deepest darkest moments of life, in any terrible situation that you're in, remember what you told yourself and what you wanted. Just remember it and feel that exact emotion you felt when making that decision, and do it. Whatever that is bothering you, will fade.

2012 Resolutions

Yeah i know. It's another new chapter or edition or release in the bookstore. To be more specific, it's the dawn of yet another spanking new year, which means, new resolutions. I'm gonna cut this short.

Here's first up on my list:

1# Manage myself. I'm such a klutz. I can't do anything right. But here's something i want to improve. I want to be able to manage myself better.

an epiphany

Life and some things in between is like a race. Everyone is heading towards that finish line. Everyone wants to get there first. You also want to reach that finish line before they do. Everyone trains hard to be able to run the race. You've got to train and work hard to reach that finish line. The moment you stop running, others who are running will get ahead of you, the moment you fall, get back up and continue running. You get back up because you want to reach the finish line. Keep in your mind that You, and only you, want to win that race. At this point of time and situation, the others do not matter. Only you do, because you want to win the race.

the reason above all

Have you ever wondered? Of course you have. Everyone has wondered about something at some point in their lives. But what I'm talking about is something different. It's something much more deeper than you might you think. It isn't your everyday thought. It's a deep subconcious thinking. The point where you go deeper in the depths of your little brain to find that little magical orb. This magical orb holds the key to the door you've been trying to find.