the reason above all

Have you ever wondered? Of course you have. Everyone has wondered about something at some point in their lives. But what I'm talking about is something different. It's something much more deeper than you might you think. It isn't your everyday thought. It's a deep subconcious thinking. The point where you go deeper in the depths of your little brain to find that little magical orb. This magical orb holds the key to the door you've been trying to find.

re-work the mind

From now on, pay attention to every single detail I encounter.

if I don't stand up for myself, nobody will.

I'm going to start doing what I'm thinking without thinking twice from now on.

It's about my future

Right now, I have to make a change. I REALLY HAVE TO. If I continue being this way, I might cause unnecessary damage to anyone in the future and mostly myself. I gotta think hard and I gotta keep it mind from now on and always. Keep it in mind to never make such a mistake again. Forgetfulness and this lack of responsibility will ruin me in the long run. It is already ruining me slowly. My tendency to forget even the tiniest of details will kill me. Jinn, think hard and make a change.You have to do it right this instant. The damage has already been done and cannot be reversed. The only thing you can do right now is to realize and act upon where you left off. Be smart this time. The tallest building started from a speck of sand once, so remember that. To build yourself up, you have to get it in your mind that YOU want to do it, and keep piling the stacks up one by one. Be it slow, never mind,just keep doing it. No more slacking. Remember this.