The rise and fall

I've hit rock bottom,again. It's been countless times since this has happened to me. Such a great big blow is dealt to me every time I fall into this godforsaken pithole. It just hurts so much to think I'm totally helpless in situations like this. Completely helpless. How many times would I need to try before we actually achieve something worthwhile? Just how many failures would I have drown into before I could finally just swim up to surface and shrug of all the sweat that I'm in? It could be said that I haven't been trying my best, doing my best. Just exactly, how would I even know if I did my best? All I can say is that I've been doing way